Trichotillomania causes mixed thoughts. On one hand, I really want hair. On the other hand, a loss of some hair shouldn’t control my life, my decisions, or my emotions. Either way I’m in a constant argument with myself.

After over six months of regrowth, in just ten minutes I have a new little bald spot. My immediate reaction is, “Fuck.” …as expected.

It makes me feel like shit, if I’m being honest, and it’s not the only bald spot I have in this mohawk.

This is what I was avoiding the entire time I kept my head shaved. I’m done avoiding it and I’m not going to cry over it. I also don’t think it warrants shaving my head again quite yet. I’m just going to finish writing this and move on with my day. There are more important things to focus on, right? I have bald spots…so what?